Mr. Cuddle Bear, Samuel

My children have a tendancy to nap in my bed, hang out, or simply crawl in to cuddle. I grabbed a camera and snapped these awhile back, and just got around to scrapping them.

Pregnancy and Loss Awareness (Ramblings)

I was asked to give my opinion on how to deal with loss, and what was some of the worst things I had to go through. So here we go:

The best way for me to describe loss is, like imagining losing a parent, a care giver, best friend, or someone you are closest to.

How would you handle that situation, what would you say or not say?

Pregnancy loss is death, of part of your own body. Would you challenge someone with one leg to a marathon, then laugh and point because they are different than you, NO. So why act like you know what is going on, and make dumb comments? -OR- Think of it as a goal in life, that you have dreamed of since you were a child, to have it come crashing down around your feet in little bitty pieces. There is no way to gather all those pieces and put them back together again.....What does that do to your self-esteem, or self-worth? It takes a long time to build self-esteem/worth in yourself again....so skip the old proverbial "get back up on the horse and try again"


Stupid things I have heard:


When are you two ever going to have kids?


It was probably for the best, what do you think God was trying to tell you?(My thoughts: If God didn't want me to have kids, why did he put such a desire in my heart.)

You have children already, be thankful, and count your blessings..this child could and probably had something wrong with it, or you have more than you will ever be able to take care of.

Get over it and get your feelings off your shirt sleeve, you weren't pregnant that long.

It's done and over, no harm done. Just move on and try again.

Maybe it just wasn't meant to be for you to have children.

This is something I have never confessed before..

...but my biggest worry was: I am a woman, married to a man who has the right to have children. I was scared out of my mind that if I had something wrong with me that he would leave me.

I even convinced myself that if I couldn't give him children I deserved to be abandoned, that he could have children with someone else...someone else could grant him that dream....and I would be left alone. There are no right words to say.

What meant the most to me....

Receiving a card, that said "I am sorry for your loss."

Having someone there to allow me to mourn. Not being the only one who remembers.....You never forget.

My biggest suggestion is to find a support group in your local area...and attend.

Your baby was real. You may have never held it in our arms...but you held it in your heart.

In Rememberance of:

Christopher Alexander Lee

Earned wings: May 17 @ 6 weeks
Estimated Due Date: Jan 17, 1992

Jessica Amanda Leeann

Earned wings: March 5 @ 8 weeks
Estimated Due Date: October 1, 1995

Emily Faith

Earned wings: December 3 @ 7 weeks

Estimated Due Date: July 8, 1996

Myranda Hope

(Jadan & Jordan's Triplet)

Earned wings: July 5 @ 7 weeks

Estimated Due Date: February 9, 2002

Ninteen Years and Counting...

I have been married to the same man for nineteen years. Who would have ever thought, we would stay together? Not many people, gave us credit for sticking it out and staying together.

Norm and I met in high school. We were high school sweethearts from the time I was a freshman. We of course broke up and stayed friends off and on, but in the end we fell in love and have been together every since.

Over the years, I have heard : "How do you do it?" To be honest, we have had our ups and downs, but what marriage doesn't? I think there were times when we both thought it would fall apart, but with a lot of give and take...it all worked out. Being a military family has had it's burdens, but I am happy to say we are still together, and our love has grown steady, and strong.

I sometimes don't give him enough credit for things, but he is my world, and has graced me with the most precious gifts...our children, and a love that goes beyond understanding. He is the most awesome father,I could ever ask for. I am very proud of our family, and most of all the love we all have for one another.

Norm, I love you...and I look forward to the rest of our lives together. May the roads we travel be less bumpy, full of happiness, and continued joy.

Love Always, Priscilla

My baby, ....is a BIG BOY!

Well it has finally happened, this weekend....my baby, my last born, has hit a milestone that brings tears to my eyes. Jadan lost his first tooth.

He had a straw chewing on it and Breanna took the straw from him, pulling it out of his mouth. He came to me and said, "Mom, Breanna knocked my tooth out." I looked at him and didn't see any blood and thought he was joking. I had him open his mouth and sure enough it was wiggling away. He was insistant that it be pulled. So with a little help from daddy, he managed to lose his first tooth. I did fine with it until Norman started tearing up, and I lost it.

Well we have one more that hasn't lost any teeth....I guess Jordan will be next.

Back to School, September

I managed to get this picture done and will be scrapping the rest of them pictures for their scrapbook. For now though here is a glimpse into their first day of school.

Well times seems to be slipping by, and I haven't updated in a few days...so here goes.

The kids are back in school, and doing wonderfully. I took them to the meet and greet and they were all excited to meet their new teachers and see the new school they would be attending.

Thing are kind of different this year as Jordan and Jadan only have half day kindergarten. So they all leave at the same time in the morning but the boys get home about lunchtime. Breanna and Samuel don't get home until about three.

The weather is starting to cool off and I guess we will be closing down the pool before long.

Samuel came up to me today and said, "Only five more weeks until Halloween", and I was like ...WHAT???

They are all growing up so fast and I am loving every minute of it, except the fact that they are getting so big....

My Boys

I am so blessed with loving children. Sure they have their moments where they argue, but for the most part they are always loving and looking out for each other .

These pictures were taken just after we had went swimming in our pool. Jadan said he was cold, and Jordan wanted to warm him up by hugging him. We were having a couple of cool days so the water was kind of chilly. I snapped these pictures while they were all sharing hugs.

My First Try At Digital Scrapbooking.

My daughter was playing around the other day and I snapped a couple of pics of her. After receiving some digital scrap kits in email this morning, I decided to play a bit and this is what I came up with.

She is growing up so quickly, entering the third grade. Where has time gone, as my little one has become quite the young lady. She is simply amazing and I love her with all the pride of being her mother.

(*Thank you: http://www.digiscrapboutique.com/ for your awesome scrap kit!)